It is so easy to fall
stumble and trip over my glib view
of what has happened to me
of what has happened to you
to what happens daily while others
underestimate
the power of words
as i do myself

it is so easy to fall back into the person i hate
to create for myself a place I
need to run from
to create for those around me
a reason to push away
easier to see this through clearer lenses
goodbye to the endless ego push
goodbye to giving any fucks
goodbye to whatever it is i have built
because i am sick
i need help

The best way to help myself
is to get away from all of you
to give myself back my brainspace
and forgive those taking up weight
i cannot bear this anymore
all this hate is killing me
leaden legs and heart heavy
i quit weed and took up
self harm again
almost
almost
almost was worth it