the last thing i ever said to her was
i love you like the sun
nine days before the window opened
tall one buckled
under yet another sky
a family of gestures to catch this pause
in cotton gloves
dusty hems
they carried him cross the bridge
of the passing tide
to a softly broken stride
carried her to her wings
to glimpse the mountain peek
on her way home, she promised me
she wasn't going anywhere,
before i said
i love you like the sun.

She taught me to bow to Moon
like a child of dusted stars,
taught me grace through loving scars
swoon daily at the sky,
fall onto my knees in wonder,
at the spectrum inverted ocean of light
i still do this
every day
i still cry too though
every day
i can't bring myself to use past tense
about you
darling lady
loved liked my own blood
hearts failing, pumping
silence into my clubbed chest,
beaten,
breast torn,
You swore to me you'd be okay
you said, babe,
i'm not going anywhere, i'm safe
nine days before
gravity faded
before the heavens cracked open
made space
for an angel.